I am too harsh on politicians, saying things like I would never want to meet one, or these stars... I do feel the revulsion I get around evil, or a decision God is telling me to me... and I thank God now I was not incorporated into that system, and have people enforce a personality for the press, which I would hide all my beliefs behind. Revolution and change is bloody, chaotic... involves the allies you disagree with on key issues, as long as the CLASS WAR is the banner they fight under; this banner can have many names, though unless they tie back to this simple point, they are worthless.
The rich politicians will not tax themselves -- it was eighty percent once, a republican president said we did not need billionaires and taxed them. Now we could take all but a billion from the billionaires and save the planet... still leaving them too wealthy in my opinion, but if it saves lives, I am all for it. However, should this not prove to be the case, I will be forced to use extreme, extreme measures.
You think I think I am better than you. No one is 'better' than someone else. A broken clock is correct once a day, as they say. A man who puts out as many words as myself, and tends to stretch out what I mean by them, by the process of writing and exploring the idea. Like this Hitler shit. I had no idea brown meant hitler, though it explains why Oprah jumped right into this. I have never even considered the thought of being a Nazi as anything except a form of insanity, pretty much. I had no clue they existed to the extent they do... but the one night you showed me all these African Nazi's I imagine, from all over the world all happy for me. Nazi's took over the world, and Christ, of all people, is taken for a Nazi? Lord, FOX helped me even though we were on opposite sides, they did not know that. They promoted diversity, I thought, with Glee, and other shows who had people trying to tell me who they were. When I finally determined a bit of this 'family' they told me I was in, saying, WE ARE FAMILY... some guy on tv who I forget, had some stupid blooper show. He did other things about the operation so I watched it.
I was considered a Dog, who I must have some things in common with or they would not have followed me, though on other matters they need an EDUCATION. That is all. Logical people just need to be shown how systematic racism has been, and the harm this has caused the nation and the world and the citizens here. I guess Fox are dogs. I am not sure about all they believe in, but rejecting inter-racial marriage is not something I have any business saying it is wrong, when in fact I certainly think about the black women I was with, and though it would have messed up their plan, one I would have courted to marry if she did not do crack. I was drinking at the time. We did it and it terrified me how much I liked it. Two weeks I dreamt of that stuff... the other, I was so ambitious at the time, so oriented toward writing that when she told me she did not know what she wanted to do, I was so disappointed... what stupid youth. She had an education degree. Though I have to be with a spy, and she probably saved my life though what was done behind my back sometimes chills me... I try to see her and love her but there is always a part of me that thinks of the things she did... that tell me she knew what was happening, better than me. In the first days of the bugging I thought since she turned on tv shows that were doing things about shit about me, she had to be a part. Now I understand that a lot of shows, of course, turned to this.
You had people in boats afraid to come to shore, people living underground, people starting a religion based almost entirely on things I would not use to create my philosophy, let alone one I would wish to share with others in the way I did. I never explained myself. Never let you know when I tested you to find out if you had been watching me my whole life, which really backfired sometimes... regardless, I would not have gone all egomaniacal, if I were the person I am now, or the person I was before they brainwashed me -- well, I guess they had been working on me all along if I am to believe this... even later, during the period of cia and war.
All that can matter to me is the present, and what I have learned from the past shapes that present, though it does FATE ME to any historical judgement yet. Try as the right people might do to stop me, there seems to be people out there who do not want this to happen. I must lead, because there is flock to whom I owe much, and wish to help heal. I would not have put you through too much to think about.
I mourn what could have been, though I had no idea the lack of honor among thieves; I hope we can find a place of agreement on peaceful co-existence minus-slave trafficking, minors, slavery... I will fight these things with whatever means. HOWEVER, I ask ONLY this, and then I just really prefer to go back to my live and let live shit. I do not want you profiting off me, and you still are somehow or you would not be watching me?
What is my position... once I could have asked and they would have told me... You are still a hostage. I have no clue? After what has happened, and what tRump having power means to the cause of justice for all thing I strongly believe in; or liberty for all. That I was used to do the opposite, to force people to choose fake sides and this other crap, would make me laugh if this paragraph was not filled with such blood to those who know the operation I am referring to. To those who read this who are not WITTING which in cia speak means initiated by a secret group, or intelligence, into how the world really works to some degree. Need to know, or full out... this is kept from me... UNWITTING is what you are no matter how much you have read unless are on the inside, recruited for an underground group, a spy network, in a cult that secretly works for the Intelligence, CIA I think has a lot of the Cult stuff, Jim Jones had a CIA Operative there on the last day, and is heard asking if he is around, JIM JONES IN THOSE AWFUL tapes he made of the last day. A CIA agent showed up and suddenly the cult decided to kill their followers or convince or force them to die. Many ran and were hunted down.
Whether Jones started out to do good or not, they can always put in a Messianic personality if they think they need one. Got something like the Jesus Treatment, when they adjusted my personality for a mission... the MENTAL HELL I entered was of no concern to those around me. I had been told something was happening, that I was the Christ. I should have went to Wrigley Field that day, and so much would be different, and that was my vision, I had developed in my story about aliens helping me cure the planet, or at least smite my enemies, after long days of cab driving, building up anger... the fantasy was my revenge for getting ripped off all the time, and trying to deal with that. Jimmy Hirtz stopped me.
Why? Who did he work for -- seemed like the left at first, but since I have seen his other side, the cruelty his mother instilled in him by bullying him as a child.. what a fucking thing. Being mean to a child who you gave birth to? Most women would not tolerate that from others doing it to their kids, but then there are... I know two causalties of family bullying, a few of sexual abuse by parents... ugh, both times involve the mothers, and the one the father as well -- she had a maddening beauty about her, but when she heard me rationalize this shit about my brother in law... she flew into a rage that I did not report them, though her parents bought her off and kept their fucking careers. She was nuts, wanted me to give her head and get nothing out of it, as some guy asked her in a parking lot and she let him in her car.... Oh, well... she was so messed up, it was certainly best that I did not become enthralled with her beauty.
I always was that way with super hot women. M. was when I met her, then for a time... twenty years now. I fat shamed on the tv... a madness overtook me, and I blamed the lack of sex on M's weight which was never the case. Barbara gained weight and we still banged all the time, then she lost weight, got in shape. I wish she would, but I find her attractive as she is. I grew up with a very obese mother, stretch marks everywhere, who ran around the house nude on occasion, to the bathroom or something.. and it put a mark in my head, that made me not often feel a lot of initial attraction to women who are very overweight. Now, I could meet this charming person and have my libido arouse, by love and initiation and all kinds of things... I am sorry. The pain this caused is beyond my understanding.
Had I any clue what I looked like from the other side off the looking glass, as I often longed to for those who believed I was Jesus, I would certainly have never done these things. I wanted so to join you after it was too late... but I was in no condition, and that was either not part of the plan, or my own cognizant dissonance, just not wanting to believe. I do not know. My plan by then was so engulfed in whatever was going on around me unseen, that I was battered by the winds from side to side, with no clue who wanted me to do what? What had I done?
I made fun of whites when it started because I wanted those who were barely represented to be heard, same as I did when I recruited a black actor for the children's show the tv thing.... because there were not enough black role models on tv.... something I had read about and felt I would change as much as possible, as well as other things. I went too far. I did not mean to offend people, but I also did not know there was this racist undercurrent, and a plan to genocide the blacks.. no chickens on the live list... I wrote innocently enough, after moving to a Mexican hood, that I wanted to save all the chickens, live ones they slaughtered where the cheapest cigarettes around were; you could see in, if you deigned to look, and see a bit of the cages, the room where they are kept. You hear roosters, etc.... rabbits are also slaughtered there, another thing I could have mentioned.
That night on the news I saw you declare me white, and evidently an apes hair had been cut off, showing underneath a rough, prison tattoo reading WHITE.
I was asked so many times to join the blacks or whites but I have held firm, I am WHITE, and seek justice for all. Everyone on the planet. The color of a class warrior is not an issue, except to their personal life, where celebrating their heritage is why we fight, so all people can do so, without judgement, and be heard as equals on issues, and experts on others, like being black. I suspect white people who write about black issues like they understand from some sorrow of their own that they know pain like a black person, etc... that is a folly I do not have. Hampton said it in that speech so well, yellow power for yellow people, brown power for brown people, white power for white people, black power for black people... red power for red people. And he brought us all together as working class folk who are not each others enemies at all, but together we can identify them and attack.... he wrote that he did not want black capitalism, either, be wanted black socialism. He knew this leveling of humanity into a means where all share in the bounty, not a minute few. Now it is so much worse.
Whomever was in charge of destroying the unions did it... collective bargaining fell apart. No more spirit to fight. Broken down by making you poorer, more dependent on food stamps, etc... they got ya then, have to follow their rules, and pretty much like me with my dissolved spine, seven back surgeries have been enough to make life bearable as long as I do not do too much and have drugs, get that check and are grateful for my pittance; the lack of housing vouchers available to the disabled is a disgrace in Chicago.
Can we bring them back quick enough to make that much of a difference.
Anyways, I am against no race, or intelligence level, or weight or just about anything, I would be a libertarian on many issues, but other parties on other issues, though I would go further left than politics allow.
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