Using their corpses as a wall against those who still charge at me . . . I had a vision of this, very early on when I started awakening; myself surrounded by piles of enemy bodies, on ancient battle fields, where we swung axes and swords . . . when I am born to fight, I am invincible in a way. I can only die when my mission is complete, so I never worry about dying, because by the time I complete what I have set out to do, I am ready for a break from my soul being stuck in flesh anyways.
I used to describe the old ways, with metaphoric embellishments to make a point, during the period I was being watched both by those who considered themselves my acolytes, and enemies, and just curious... whatever reason you watched the dreaded cameras set up around my house, first for security, and then to record my words and actions, as if I was giving orders thru drawings, etc... I had threatened things that were metaphysical that others made physical. Looking back I should have known the hornet nests I was punching my fists right into would sting back. I chose to take on the united states governments' illegitimate rulers, as the constitution says is my right -- indeed, obligation. They knew that the rich would get over another scheme, as the colonizers did on them before, the English.... and that more revolutions would be needed.
I do not know what I described that led to seth rogan from working with the end of the world angle, which a lot of people believed this very weird vision I had of endless lightening and lava flowing from my body, an ending all life on earth event, the same night I had a vision of someone being beaten up, who was -- God's way of saying, THIS IS MORE THAN A DREAM.
They sent out footage of me masterbating as if I would have done so ... I was driving to drive away people who were spying on me. People I hated. Rogan had someone do this in his movie about the apocalypse and end up leading a crew of cannibals, as demons took over the earth, though a few folks went right up to heaven. The movie freaked me out because it was about some pretty fucking horrible events that Rogan knew about and since he is an intelligence stooge, he made a movie making me out to be the ultimate villain... it was slander against me. Hatred for the chaos I caused in Hollywood and tv and radio and intelligence, religion, etc... after being taken for a person who was a mere criminal by some, a con man to others, God to some, a demi God to others, a buffoon to some, a psycho.... Lord, when you live bugged and filmed for years, knowing you can talk to the bugs nd get messages out somehow, because your words and actions are repeated back to you on tv shows. They wanted operation bluebeam to make a one world religion leading to a one world government...
I tell the same story too much... how can I think of anything else, when such huge events are happening, and I have been given a small amount of influence in what happens....
I FEEL the hatred stirring up in my chest, telling me it is time to stop writing about this.... God is love. If I can follow the love in this love, as I HAVE, for humanity, liberty, justice... instead of hate for people who committed the war crimes I learned of as they interrogated me for mass murder, I have to look at humans as misguided flesh housing souls, that are precious to God, and deserving of Love... souls I know when I am not in the flesh, and see going thru painful lives to learn all lessons lives can offer.
I am skeptical. Much more so than I have seemed with my declarative sentences about religion, my yelling over this moral point or that, being the mean and cruel Johnny Pain ala Christ who hated humans for what they were doing, could not believe people would even think of these things. The cruel tortures and deaths I learned about in intelligence, not to mention the theft which should have been a revolutionary fund, but I was not informed... and though I had nothing to do with it, I wanted to use the money to compensate the victims, make their grieving easier. Funny, how they still believed I wanted a race war back then, many of them, though they would learn the error of their ways when I risked my life over and over to back Justice, no matter which colored human required it... if I could help, I did. I do.
I take no position in your race war at all. Empowering everyone is my goal. The Billionaires lose a few numbers on a computer screen that does not have to barely effect their lives, left with ten million or whatever. Amnesty for their crimes, to pave a path that is non violent in our take over, if possible. If there are better angels, or genetic programming about being part of a tribe, which is the entire human race now that we are all endangered by the same small group, who do not care any more if people realize their obscene wealth is an assault on all logic, and morality, when there are homeless, starving, sick... and a world to mend. How could anyone be selfish enough to think off mission when it comes to saving the world? Because they think their mission is to genocide seven billion people, rather than the less murderous solution. A NEW CULTURE of the most talented, bright, beautiful, royal, rich, etc... who crawl in a DUMB for a month, then come up to a mostly uninhabited planet, where even the radio activity of the Pacific Ocean can be ignored since there is literally land and housing for the taking all over the planet. Probably use soldiers to clear the bodies, I imagine. I never found out what they planned to use though the evidence suggest Ebola is their present choice.
THE TRAITORS TO HUMANITY
consider the universe without law
existence without Karma or heaven and hell
life a series of sensual experiences -- work hard party hard
atheists convinced they answered the unanswerable as ridiculous
as fundamentalist Christians arguing Noah's ark is a literal story
not a metaphor for in being in a flood, save your animals before you save bad men...
We do not know the writer's of the bibles intentions
How they thought was very different than our own
minds filled with witches and demons and a God who judged them
in every battle lost, with the death of each child, bad harvest...
the myths that built up around the Church
the remnants of Pagan religions tacked onto his humble message
The dreams of Angels and their names and such, the icons that stand before humans
and GOD
There Is no God except God
Whatever God you worship is the God of many masks
in an appearance to provide a way of living suited to the needs of a people
thru religion or war or example
Learning all about humans, the Son of man created from the son of God
living another life in a new time with new truths new religions new ways
I had forty five years to try to determine how humans live now
almost half a century to break a hole in the leaders wall of lies big enough to see in
My limited view showed me unspeakable horrors
incidents I am glad I can say my loyalty oath keeps me from speaking of that
I keep more secrets than I give away -- the endless list I do not want to think of
let alone be brought into the light/think of what others think of me for the things I have done
They did worse is one excuse for becoming a monster to fight monsters
They were killing people and I had to stop them no matter how much blood
I would find myself mentally drowning in for the rest of my life
In the battles I did not think about dead civilians only achieving an objective
In the battles a cruel trance seemed to come over me, ancient warriors from past lives
who knew better than I how to fight
Cruel beings/brutal
once I was accused of orchestrating a campaign of murder and torture
to win back my name after my enemies tricked me into humiliating myself
before the world
in ways too sick to mention
MY campaign was to stop a race war
which they considered the wrong thing to do
they wanted one, were winning, and evidently
I was helping -- I had no idea what I could do
so I tried to stop what was obviously
needed to get peace
did what was required no matter how blood splattered
to let those who were harmed let out their revenge
on a few of the war criminals...
People who threatened my life twice that week
and I did not even fucking know why?
This happened to me in this life, again... surrounded by dead enemies and allies alike. I wrote very early on in my first book that God's do not fight, they slaughter. I knew how brutal things get when people fight under the auspices of a God. I saw the fanaticism in the eyes of one of the killers, and maybe he was brainwashed to be like he was, I heard him proclaim that the old salt had to be gotten rid of... I felt a chill when I realized he meant people. I had no idea he was a killer yet. He told me, Don't tell them where the bones are, man... I had no idea what he meant. He either thought I was in on it or was trying to frame me, which another guy, who happened to introduce me to this cia killer, because the dudes cover was this drunken weed salesmen. I cannot go into details here because this is top secret but what they accused me of wanting done to the fish, was exactly the opposite of what I would have done.
I am puzzled by what God does, though sometimes with the twenty twenty vision of reflection, I get why some wild thing had to happen to make something else happen, etc.... I think I know why I was placed in the center of a mission, though I sure as hell was not prepared for what they wanted me to do, or what was happening at all...
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